Beautiful

I met a boy I like today.
He's like... Beautiful.

Indecisión

Adórame. Tapiza mi destino con diamantes, meréceme. Actuando que deseas ser mi amante concédeme hasta la más absurda fantasía. Compláceme y firma sin mirar la letra chica. De ahora en más no reproches lo que haya y acostúmbrate a aceptar mi condición...
Prisionera de tu indecisión, tu desidia me tuvo alquilada. Un pequeño error al margen para actuar en él.
Adórame y ponle luz a todos mis caprichos. Merecéme. Devora mi deseo de a poquito. Concédeme que todo lo que diga sea en chiste, compláceme... Ríe como si fuéramos felices.
Lo habitual es que tú hagas y deshagas, pues a eso me tienes acostumbrada. Prisionera de tu indecisión, tu desidia me tuvo alquilada... Un trabajo de asistente de mago amateur.
En un pasado fuiste todo para mí. Vivía pendiente de tus desacatos... Ahora te trato con desdén y tendrás que comprender que las cosas han cambiado.
Adórame. Talla mi perfil en esmeralda, meréceme. Soporta mi desliz sobre tu espalda. Concédeme un tiempo para sentirme ausente, compláceme -no soy igual al resto de la gente-.

26

No... No me mires como antes, no hables en plural. La retórica es tu arma más letal.
Voy a pedirte que no vuelvas más, siento que me dueles todavía aquí: adentro. Y que a tu edad sepas bien lo que es romperle el corazón a alguien así.
No se puede vivir con tanto veneno. La esperanza que me da tu amor no me la dio más nadie, te juro, no miento. No se puede vivir con tanto veneno. No se puede dedicar al alma a acumular intentos, pesa más la rabia que el cemento.
Espero que no esperes que te espere después de mis 26, la pasión ya se me ha ido hasta los pies y voy deshojando margaritas y mirando sin mirar para ver si así te irritas y te vas...

Always wanting you

With all of this I know now everything inside of my head. It all just goes to show how nothing I know changes me at all. Again I wait for this to change instead to tear the world in two. Another night with him but I'm always wanting YOU.
Use me, honey, come on and use me... We know where we go. Use me, honey, come on and use me. We go where we know.
With all of this I feel now everything inside of my heart. It all just goes to show how nothing I feel pulls me at all. Oh, again I wait for this to pull apart, to break my time in two. Another night with him but I'm always wanting you.
Use me, honey, come on and use me... We know where we go. Use me, honey, come on and use me. We go where we know.
He's all I need, he's all I dream, he's all I'm always wanting... I'm always wanting you, I'm always wanting you, I'm always wanting you.
Use me, honey, come on and use me... We know where we go. Use me, honey, come on and use me. We go where we know.
He's all I need, he's all I dream, he's all I'm always wanting... I'm always wanting you, I'm always wanting you, I'm always wanting you.
Oh, again I wait for this to fill a whole, to shake the sky in two. Another night with him but I'm always wanting you, another night with him but I'm always wanting you.

Make things right

Yes, I need more time just to make things right...



Me and you, what's going on? All we seem to know is how to show the feelings that are wrong.

Instead

She loves you. But she can’t stand it. Can’t stand the love, so she fucks me instead.

Boom

Yesterday I realized that it's true what some people say... You've got to live every day like it's your last day in this world.
I think I'm not ready enough to put into words how it feels yet. The thing is, my cousin had an accident and he is dead now. He was just 20 years old and he has an 8-days baby. What the fuck? How, when, why? I mean, it's overwhelming. Honestly, I don't understand. No one could have ever seen this happening... But it happened.
In less than 24 hours he jumped out of this world leaving us behind with more questions than answers. Although we weren't too close relatives, his death has fucking affected me too much. Even more than my grandma's death, because that one was rather more predictable and I had a chance to say goodbye.
I'm still confused, worried, sad and sort of deppressed. I can't eat, I don't mind being dirty, I can't keep awake for too long. Everything around me is like... Nothing. Because I don't care, I got stuck in last night's sad episode.
It was like too violent for me and my family to hear the news. So that is how you can go from the happiest moment in your life right to death. My dead cousin's sister told me he was having the best time ever because of his baby... He had nothing but light and love in his eyes. And then... Boom.
Only God knows the reason why this happened. I really doubt any of us would get that though.
This situation is freaking scary for me. I'm hopeless, I can't figure out a way to be calm since I can't stop thinking that it could happen to me or to any of my loved ones... At any time. Please, PLEASE, God, if you're reading this, do not let that happen to any of them because I don't think I can go through this one more time.
Well, I guess everything will go on as usual in a few days. It's a matter of time.