Have you ever loved someone so much, you'd give an arm for?
Not the expression, no, literally give an arm for?
When they know they're your heart
And you know you were their armour
And you will destroy anyone who would try to harm 'her
But what happens when karma, turns right around and bites you?
And everything you stand for, turns on you, despite you?
What happens when you become the main source of her pain?
"Daddy look what I made", Dad's gotta go catch a plane
"Daddy where's Mommy? I can't find Mommy where is she?"
I don't know go play Hailie, baby, your Daddy's busy
Daddy's writing a song, this song ain't gonna write itself
I'll give you one underdog then you gotta swing by yourself
Then turn right around in that song and tell her you love her
And put hands on her mother, who's a spitting image of her
That's Slim Shady, yeah baby, Slim Shady's crazy
Shady made me, but tonight Shady's rocka-by-baby...

And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back...

I keep having this dream, I'm pushin' Hailie on the swing
She keeps screaming, she don't want me to sing
"You're making Mommy cry, why? Why is Mommy crying?"
Baby, Daddy ain't leaving no more, "Daddy you're lying
"You always say that, you always say this is the last time
"But you ain't leaving no more, Daddy you're mine"
She's piling boxes in front of the door trying to block it
"Daddy please, Daddy don't leave, Daddy - no stop it!"
Goes in her pocket, pulls out a tiny necklace locket
It's got a picture, "this'll keep you safe Daddy, take it withcha'"
I look up, it's just me standing in the mirror
These fuckin' walls must be talking, cuz man I can hear 'em
They're saying "You've got one more chance to do right" - and it's tonight
Now go out there and show that you love 'em before it's too late
And just as I go to walk out of my bedroom door
It's turns to a stage, they're gone, and this spotlight is on
And I'm singing...

And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back...

Sixty thousand people, all jumping out their seat
The curtain closes, they're throwing roses at my feet
I take a bow and thank you all for coming out
They're screaming so loud, I take one last look at the crowd
I glance down, I don't believe what I'm seeing
"Daddy it's me, help Mommy, her wrists are bleeding,"
But baby we're in Sweden, how did you get to Sweden?
"I followed you Daddy, you told me that you weren't leavin'
"You lied to me Dad, and now you make Mommy sad
"And I bought you this coin, it says 'Number One Dad'
"That's all I wanted, I just want to give you this coin
"I get the point - fine, me and Mommy are going"
But baby wait, "it's too late Dad, you made the choice
"Now go out there and show 'em that you love 'em more than us"
That's what they want, they want you Marshall, they keep.. screamin' your name
It's no wonder you can't go to sleep, just take another pill
Yeah, I bet you you will. You rap about it, yeah, word, k-keep it real
I hear applause, all this time I couldn't see
How could it be, that the curtain is closing on me
I turn around, find a gun on the ground, cock it
Put it to my brain and scream "die Shady" and pop it
The sky darkens, my life flashes, the plane that I was supposed to be on crashes and burns to ashes
That's when I wake up, alarm clock's ringin', there's birds singin'
It's Spring and Hailie's outside swinging, I walk right up to Kim and kiss her
Tell her I miss her, Hailie just smiles and winks at her little sister
Almost as if to say..

And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back...

Tus ojos me llevan lentamente al sol y tu boca me habla del amor y el corazón. Tu piel tiene el color de un rojo atardecer... Y es por ti que late mi corazón, y es por ti que he vuelto hablar de amor. Y es por ti que brillan mis ojos hoy, y es por ti que calma mi dolor...

The reason

I've found a reason for me to change who I used to be, a reason to start overnew and the reason is you. I'm sorry that I hurt you, it's something I must live with everyday. And all the pain I put you through, I wish that I could take it all away and be the one who catches all your tears. That's why I need you to hear I've found a reason for me to change who I used to be, a reason to start overnew and the reason is you. I'm not a perfect person. I never meant to do those things to you and so I have to say before I go that I just want you to know I've found a reason for me to change who I used to be, a reason to start overnew and the reason is you. I've found a reason to show a side of me you didn't know. A reason for all that I do. and the reason is you.

Nunca había besado tan fogosamente, nunca había tratado la pasión. Mientras me derrito como mantequilla, toco y acaricio el esplendor.

Merry Christmas

Feliz Navidad a quien sea que esté leyendo esta entrada. Bueno, esta Navidad fue bastante atípica para mí. Tuvo sus cosas buenas y no tan buenas (como todo en la vida) pero dentro de todo terminó bien.
Ojalá pudiera haber conseguido lo que tanto quería, pero es que soy tan cobarde... Honestamente, no entiendo cómo algo que para los demás es tan fácil y natural, a mí me cuesta tanto.
En fin, otra vez será... (Siempre digo eso y siempre sigue pasando lo mismo: no muevo un pelo por conseguirlo)
Y la comida... OMG, me fui literalmente por las ramas. Comí como una cerda, más de 4000kcal segurísimo. Ahora viene la parte de hacer ejercicio y coserme los labios para intentar sentirme más liviana.
PD= Es la primera vez que abro mi mente y mis escritos en este blog. Todas las anteriores veces eran entradas con estractos de escritos de otras personas.

Maybe after all you're not THAT necessary...

The most stunning!

Si el problema soy yo y no sientes nada por mí, dímelo y yo me marcho.
Que Dios se apiade de mí. Dime qué te pasó, tú no eras así.

Wanna fly to a place where it's just you and me, nobody else so we can be free (nobody else so we can be free)

Castigos del inconciente

Si acaso esta noche no volviera a verte más, enloquecería de sólo pensarlo. Quisiera serte sincera, pues este sentimiento me somete a aprender una lección manchada de sangre.
El duelo se acerca. Quizás sea mejor olvidarte, ¿verdad? Pero mi infantil inconciente me obliga a seguir amándote, queriéndote en secreto, reprimiendo esta fuerza que llevo dentro de mí.
Si tan sólo estuvieras dispuesto a aceptarme, seríamos tan dichosos... ¿Qué hice mal?

Sabes qué es la inseguridad,
Sabes lo que es sentir la soledad,
Mi peor error fue haber aceptado mi fealdad 

Porque ahora ya no tengo dónde esconder el miedo
Y el miedo sigue vivo, se la vive aquí conmigo
Yo me baso en la apariencia con placer y sin conciencia 
Esperando a que algún día tu atención fijes en mí

Es por eso que ahora visto así
Quiero ser elegante y estilero hasta el fin
No podré proyectarlo, me lo tengo que creer 

Suponiendo que en la gente la belleza es natural
Pues belleza es la palabra que aún no logro concretar 
Disfraz, disfraz, narcisista artificial
Disfraz, disfraz, todo es mental

Cómo me peinaré esta noche
Que ropa me combinará mejor...
Tener tu interés, convertirlo en amor 
Quisiera poder saber que piensas
¿Me veré bien o acaso me veo mal?
Se que es patético, pero en mí es normal

Suponiendo que en la gente la belleza es natural
Pues belleza es la palabra que aún no logro concretar
Disfraz, disfraz, narcisista artificial
Disfraz, disfraz, todo es mental

Suponiendo que en la gente la belleza es natural
Pues belleza es la palabra que aún no logro concretar
Disfraz, disfraz, narcisista artificial
Disfraz, disfraz, TODO ES MENTAL


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Wish I had known that what seemed so strong has been and gone.

I keep closing my eyes but I can't block you out.

What is desirable for you?

Yo que tú ni me acercaría a mí cuando las luces vienen y van, regálame algo de soledad. Hoy es el día en que todo mal. No quería, pero Navidad llegó y nada me deprime más.
Es como si algo de mí cierre la puerta que ayer abrí. Aunque golpeés, nunca estaré. Estoy hundida en mi jardín...
Va a ser mejor que dejemos unos días. Yo quiero pensar un poco lo que tengo que hacer. Y justo hoy, mejor no decidir nada. Pordría arruinarlo todo si no tengo noción.

Close your eyes and give me your hands.

I couldn't tell you why she fell that hay, she felt it everyday. And I couldn't help her, I just watched her make the same mistakes again. What's wrong, what's wrong now? Too many, too many problema. Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home but nobody's home. That's where she lies broken inside with no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes broken inside.
Open your eyes and look outside. Find the reasons why you've been rejected. And now you can't find what you've left behind. Be strong, be strong now. Too many, too many problems...

If you smoke, I'll smoke too.

Marco tu número, espero, me duele pensarte. Ya van mil veces; te escucho y no puedo hablarte.
Otra noche triste. Te cuelgo y me pierdo. Otra noche oscura, me muero en el sueño.

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